civilization and all its discontents

now i don't think the world is absurd at all. changed my mind. it has timing - this world, this universe. when patterns are obvious, there's no absurdity there. some intelligence is involved. god is not silent after all. the greeks may be right. the difference is in the nature of tragedy: ordinary people can be tragic figures.

help me god, err, world, whoever/whatever's out there somewhere. make this that thing rational people call a mid-life crisis. to escape existence at forty would be, that would be heaven.